Families are funny and …
I don’t understand them. This includes my own family but especially Paul’s. It’s not that they haven’t been pleasant because they have. But. I’m kinda used to being the outcast or the least daughter in law. I’m not Catholic, I’m too fat, etc. However, I have to say I’m somewhere between laughter and horror at my mother in law, tonight. She’s always said outrageous things to me and I’ve done my best to ignore her. A good example is when my brother in law, Connie (Archie) married Elaine about six years ago (God, time does fly) my mother in law said to me, “Well, she’s black but she’s slender and has a nice figure so I guess that’s alright.” I could only speculate she felt black beats fat (me being fat). I was really afraid to dig any further for meaning and in this instance I’ve laughed about it for six years. After 26 years of marriage I either stay away or ignore her. There’s really no in between.
For the last couple of days I seem to be the daughter in law she confides in. As soon as one of the others leave the room she complains to me about them. She doesn’t like what they say or they make her nervous, etc. I’m doing my best to stay neutral and not saying much beyond really? why do you think that? I’m sorry or what do you want to do about that or just nodding my head in agreement to whatever she’s saying. As we were driving away tonight I wondered to my daughter, Tracey, what she would be saying about us. She’s old, about 86 or 87 so she gets some slack. I just keep thinking, does she know who I am? It’s kind of nice not being on the receiving end of one of her remarks, me or Paul. I can’t help myself, I keep talking him up, about how wonderful he is, etc. He keeps giving me these looks that ask, “Are you the same wife who called me an ass, last night?” Lol. But I do think alot of him and I want them to as well. Although why it should matter I don’t know but it does. I suppose everyone wants their family to think well of them.
Well, this puppy, Little Bear/Truck/Chevy/Gunner is finally asleep and I’m ready as well.